Hello I'm back in action!!!!
Heyz after a long, long time, I just guess its time to be back in the blog for a while, gosh its been a year. 2006 is now in and it is going to be easter soon. I just had the urge to go back into writing, maybe "stupid stuff" to certain people, or maybe" words of wisdom" to others, i just guess that this is a result of disconnection from the rest of the world, a life plagued by dota, alias DEFENSE*OF*THE *ANCIENTS ALLSTARS!!! Hell yeah, attached above me is the picture of goofy old me, *MAGNET*(Andre), Paul(kick ass Muay Thai guy), and of course this beloved picture would not have been done without the effort of our fren Spencer the greatest drummer that i have ever met and a friend that i will treasure for life.
Oh well, I guess that its time for me to do new things to the blog, the motive has change. No longer the purity that comes in the baptism of fire and pain, no... For a long year of pain and friendship i've went through, ive decided that enough shit is enough shit. Its time for a change, it will be "atrum monumentum, ignis mare, sanctuera maculo, lapsus linguae" in their respective latin translations "Dark memoirs", "Sea of fire", "sanctuary defiled", and "slip of tongue".
Why this terms?



"Dark memoirs", to signify the pain that i went through last year, over a course of betrayals, especially by my own brethen


"Sea of fire", the view of what i'm seeing now, every single thing a crimson red, the earth and its denizens calling out for the injustice dealt to them, especially people who claim they are from the mother church and yet living a life of hypocrisy, dealing and hurting others by spreading rumours which were so untrue. The truth will speak for itself soon....




"Sanctuary Defiled", What I have considerered my sanctuary, my home and my church, have now been turned to places where i can never go to, whereby they become thorns constantly pricking at my heels as i walk through the bushes filled with hidden thistles....




"a slip of tongue", to show how promises are so easily broken, the trust of friendship that is long like wine, broken over a series of hurtful untruths and words



If anyone should ask me whether i'm bitter over this issues, i'd really don't know a darn abt it.


I'm really starting to question god, why u create this world whereby every single thing seems to be a lie, and he slowly carresses my mind with this answers. "I've created man, to unknot this tangles, and i've created you, what have you done about it?" And its this answers that are starting to crack me up....