What truely determines whether a person is a failure/success?

.Is it by the income the person brings home per year?
.Is it the job that the person has?
.Is it his name/reputation?

The modern world that we live in deems us failures/succesful peoplebased on the criteria above, and that's what many of us are living for. To dwell in the control of power in the various politics in the group that we are in. To have a total control of our life? Working ourselves so that we can live comfortably the way we are?

Are these things really necesary to our daily life? Or does living life to the fullness by living your days happily, able to love one another as you have been loved by god.

I guess I'm not much of a success in the way the world sees it, I dun have the 5cs. I'm doing moderately well in my studies. Plain average looking. My reputation, hmmm down the tubes I guess, I dun give a darn shit about it.

But despite all the so call setbacks, I have God. I have someone intimate journeying with me too, though she has her own setbacks and problems. But its this thing that we belong to god that brings joy to my heart. I worry not what I eat the next day, I worry not for my results, I have little worries in this world. My heart, I do not involve myself in hatred, and even if people do hate me, I love them and forgive them. Period, I worry not anything at all, for I know that he provides and will find a way out for me.

Yes though I have disappointed people, I will still proceed on with the promises I made initially and I will do my best to fufil them, though they are broken and long overdue. I will do my best to fufil these promises.

Heys, guess it's been sometime since I last posted on this blog, I guess I wanna thank god for a few things that he gave me last year and is still giving

1. An emotional roller coaster that I've tide through and have grown stronger
2. Good friends who you can rely on at times
3. Growing closer to him in his love
4. Learning what it costs to really love other people, to give till it hurts
5. Eyes to see his glory everywhere in my life
6. Eyes to see how much more his love is needed elsewhere
7. Last but not least, a wonderful and beautiful girlfriend who loves me just as much as I love her

As this new year starts, there are a few things that I pray for

1. That his will be done and not mine, and that I will journey forward to discover it
2. That his love be made more visible in me as I journey closer to him
3. That my fellow brothers and sisters will learn to love one another instead of giving one another a knife in the back (Sadly in the house of god, jealousy, hatred and pride still exist in quantitive amounts)
4. That those who seek his love, his peace will find it


It had been a peculiar year for me...

The first half of the year I was feeling kind of bitter setting up a bitter blog, with bitter words to start with, and bitter thoughts to fill my heart. My doubt in the church grows each day, I see her youth leaders grown with self-pity, pride and anger in their hearts. But through the grace of god, many of them have change, while some still choose their old ways and have left the church. But a good number of them have changed and they are walking in the light of god once more. Through their actions and their deeds, you will clearly see the god that resides in these people's hearts. The prodigal children return to god's embrace, while some chose to walk astray once more.

The post con batch that I was pretty close to was disembled. People walk their individual ways, some hurt because of previous relationships in the group, some because of their reluctance to forgive, some for their own selfish reasons. It's ironic that the same people who accused me are scattered, swallowed by goodness knows what...

The people whom I knew in the group just fades as time passes, I guess they are good company to be with, except due to various circumstances... God has a plan for them I believe

The year started with the youth rally, with quarrels about who is right and who is wrong, without a single sense of love within our group. Each of us wants things done in our way with no care for the other's concerns and feelings.

With the will of god, may things proceed smoothly for those in the SYDR band...

Things took a better turn when I joined ZJ, learned more about what it takes to truely worship the lord, to give up all that you have to worship the king with our heart, our mind, our soul, our body.

All I asked now is that this year, that I learn to truly love more

In Jesus name I pray


God bless you all who comes along